what is it that you believe for?

Have you ever thought about what you’re praying for? Have you ever taken a moment to stop and think about what you believe God can do in your life? I have. I have been doing that a lot. I posted a photo on my Instagram a while back (to test the waters on this subject) about this very thing. I recently did a 21-day fast and usually during those times you give up something for 21 days and you spend more time praying/ reading the Word. During this time, I was praying for the net year, 2017. I prayed that God would help me see what He’s doing in my life and help me obey. One of the things I felt God speaking to me was about my faith and my prayer. I felt convicted that I had spent so much of my prayer time complaining about how I don’t see anything happening for me. Then I heard God say, “Well you never asked me for that.” Then it dawned on me. I haven’t been praying specific prayers because I didn’t believe God could do it.


Now I know how that sounds. I was raised in church and I’m a leader and to say you don’t believe God can do something is a little crazy. I get it. But, what’s the point of life if I’m not honest? I never knew that I wasn’t trusting God in certain areas until I looked back to see I never prayed for them. I wonder if you find yourself in the same boat? You look around your life and those who surround you and you wonder why you aren’t seeing the harvest. You don’t have that job, that healing, that promotion, those test results, that relationship, ect. The list can go on, but if you’re honest with yourself, have you prayed those specific prayers? If so, do you really think you trust God to do it.


When I came across this thought I instantly remembered the line from the movie Perks of Being a Wallflower, “We accept the love we think we deserve.” Although this movie was referring to romantic love, I can’t help but relate it to my prayer life. I don’t pray the prayers I think I deserve. The thing is I don’t deserve the promotion. I don’t deserve the healing. I don’t deserve the relationship and whatever else I want in my life. I’m flawed. No one deserves it. But Christ died to set us free from sin so now we are His vessels. So we may not deserve that promotion but what if we asked for the promotion and the promotion lead us to a person we can touch? What if the healing we prayed for will lead us to a healthier life so we can travel the world and share the love of Jesus? What if those friends you want can lead you to growth? Is it really so selfish to ask for those things?


I think as humans we see our prayer life in a selfish way. We don’t pray prayers because we don’t think we deserve it, when in reality it’s not about what we deserve. It’s a slap in the face to God because we never can earn His blessings. But if we never pray for those things and allow your lives to be vessels for His glory, we will continue to live a mundane life. We will continue to not be used. We will continue to never know our true potential and we loose opportunity to be the light. I don’t know about you but I would rather risk looking selfish in my alone time with God and actually see those things take place, than to be so insecure in God that I never ask.


So I say to those who can relate (and to myself) it’s time to pray big prayers. It’s time to believe for big things. If you want to be rich and own your own business because you want to give back/ give your family the life you never had, pray for it. It may seem selfish but you could have the means to go on missions trips, and support your local church. How would you have done that without the experience and finances you prayed for? If you want to grow a blog so you have a wider platform to inspire your readers, pray for it (heck, that’s what I’m doing.) For me, I’ve always had a dream of doing something creative for God, but I never feel comfortable in just one box (explains why I dabble in just about everything.) One of the big dreams I have is to own my own production company.  Yes, a production company. I grew up acting and dancing and later on found my love for writing and fashion. Why not produce all of that and make it a success. I also dream of writing a book one day, having a podcast, having a huge following on my blog, traveling, speaking to young girls about heartbreak and dreams, ect.


I don’t believe the Lord would put ideas and dreams inside my heart to stay there. I don’t care if I fail at everything, I will try. I will pray. I will work hard until I can’t anymore because I serve a God who made the stars, the oceans, humans, birds, and tacos (that’s a big deal.) He can do all that and more. Not for my fame, my glory, my success but for His. I believe one day my blog will reach thousands. I believe the book I one day write will inspire girls 18-25 yrs who are lost with a dream. I believe heartbreak will give me an edge and pain will keep me real. I believe the hard work will show in all I do, and the time it takes to get there will keep me humble. I even believe that my prayer life will bleed through all I do, one can’t help but see God in it.


All in all, 2017 is a year where I am praying specific/ big prayers. I am believing in my big God. I believe every opportunity, every dream in my heart, every idea in my mind are all on purpose and for a purpose.  What are you believing for? I challenge you, after you’re done reading this, write down on a piece of paper everything you want in your life. No matter how big or how small. The things that seem impossible and ‘too far off’, write those down too. Then I want you to pin that paper on your wall in your room and everyday I want you to pray for it. Pray that you will start believing those things can happen. I mean, what if I’m right? What if they actually do happen? What more can you pray for once God fulfills that list? Nothing is too big for God. I promise you your requests don’t scare Him. I promise you those dreams you have that you haven’t told anyone won’t shock God. He gave it to you. He is just waiting to see if you will let Him use you. He is hoping you will believe He can do it, and not only do it, but do it through you.


I leave you with these verses as encouragement:


·      James 5:16 “The prayers of a person living right with God are powerful and effective.”

·      Ephesians 3:20-21 “Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever Amen!”

·      1 Thessalonians 1:4  “ For we know, brothers and sisters loved by God, that He has chosen you.” 

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